Invincible

Alright, we have all been there, come across a song that resonates to your very soul...so you sit there for days, maybe weeks on end listening to it 10 times a day.  I have come across such a song lately. Starts off like this :

" I took a long Hard look at my life..... "

Yeah,  what the hell is it about growing older that brings the reflective quality of your soul out? I am 37 now ( shhh...don't tell anyone ) but in a lot of ways , I am still a kid, needing to grow up . So onto the next set of lyrics  :

".....lost my way while I was fighting the Tide, a Big Black Cloud , stormy sky, followed me while I was livin a lie so selfish, so in darkness when all your nights are starless and you are running outta hope ..."

 God. Sounds kinda despairing doesn't it?  I believe we all if we are honest with ourselves , have walked this valley before , feeling alone , nothing to face us but our selfish desires . But it gets better , read on good friend.... :

" .....But I found the strength inside to see the BETTER part of me AND I'll never let it go..."

Some of us never find that strength, some do through religion , some through a loved one or a spouse . I found mine through a close friend, so connected to me , we are on or own level . I feel pity for those who never find that strength to persevere through the shit battles of life as we know it . Let's move on to the part of the song that REALLY speaks to my core and excites me "

"....I've come a long long way, made a lot of mistakes , but I'm Breathin Breathin, that's why I Mean it Mean it , this time I'm a little run down , I've been livin out loud , I could Beat it Beat it , that's right cause I am FEELING FEELING ..Invincible ..."

Wow. We all made a lot of mistakes, Don't believe me , check out my " regrets " blog . that's just one in the sea of mistakes I have contributed to my life .  This is about ( the last set of lyrics) , to me (and how I feel those words) , about  " Repentance " what is that? It's not just a church word , tho, their context of it rings just as important to those who don't have a particular set of beliefs  . Repentance is in short...admitting you were wrong . I have been doing that alot. I am not perfect, no one is . when your heart is that of repentance...you really are invincible . I am gonna skip some of the song , jump to one more true part of the song :

" ...I've been so high, I've sunk so Low ,I've come so far with nothing to show , for it Mistaking , I got so good at taking , But I'm so tired of FAKING this story's getting OLD . So I've found the strength inside to see the BETTER part of ME and I'll never let it  go....." The song leads into that last set of lyrics above..

We all do that , whether you admit it or not. we take , we fake . I used to pride myself in my SL for Enn being so true . The most like me in RL. And I don't discount that , nor felt I have lied anytime those words have come out of my mouth . But I realise , just how fallible we all are , no matter if you are the President of the free world, the Pope...or CHUCK NORRIS ...we are all fake to a degree...the important part is to admit it to yourselves. I have . And will try to be better . I am posting the Song Invincible by Hedley ( a Canadian group ) . Listen and feel the words . Be well, until next time....

Enn Jaxxon

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